Broken Mirrors - C2B

One AM I can’t get you off my mind again

Wonder if you’re the only one i’m finding then

Numb the pain Novocaine

Mixed with vicodin

I can’t tame, stop the flame

Spray some hydrogen

Man i hate When its late

And i think a you

Heart it breaks My mistakes

They were big to you

Shut me off put me out

I’m a cig to you

Cut me off Now my homeboys are into you

Man i hate myself cuz i could only ride for you

Messed it up, i felt totally alive with you

Only one who understood i survived with you

Watched your mom fall to drugs almost brided you

So deprssed there’s nobody hre who understands

Moved to Canada and ran from all the problems

But i can’t run from me and no i can not comprehend

How it’s been a year but since two weeks you had a man

Turnover was quick

Got my tummy feeling sick

See you on the gram

And holding hands

That boy was awful slick

Did you talk to him while we were bonding over movie ish

Were you out here cheatin too and sending him the booty pics

Did you know he was the one

Swear i’ll grab a loaded gun

Put it to my temple take me out cause i’m a lonely son

I always feel this freakin pain

So then i’ll write these songs again

And hope that all the pain you’re causing me will wash away in rain

Cause if not this is meaningless

And i should throw away the pucks

It’s been a year and i still fear

That i will die alone and thus

I’ll never have the kids I want

The dog and cat the non shellant

The white fence that i’ve always thought

Would look good with perfect font

Of my family name on it

And i could go and show my mom

Would bring such a smile to her face when she saw pics from senior proms

I miss you so it’s sad to say

Haven’t talked in ninety days

Not even friends I miss you babe

But I guess it should be this way

Catch my feels in my sleep

I still dream a you

Still see wedding bells bridesmaids and family too

Yeah you got me blocked

But know i’m still supporting you

Almost got you pregnant and we talked about abortion too

I’m not proud a that but it’s all my story now

Found a God and his love yeah It holds me down

How he loves it amaze and i’m sorting out

All the bags i got wishin i could put em down

I’m okay but still sad it’s a constant fight

Tried to numb the pain with Redbull and some jagermist

But it made it worse so i cry Into my bed

Text my mom, tell her how I lost my only friend

Im ok im ok yeah I tell her now

Took a xan tried to calm all this anxiety down

But it failed now im up

And i cry and scowl

At the point where I broke yeah i’m just down and out

I’m so trash i wish i could just release myself

But i can’t so i long to leave this freezing hell

Heart it broke, shattered down broken mirrors now

See my face in the shards yeah i’m lookin foul

Deleted pics and it’s almost been a year and so

I guess it took a while to let all of the memories go

I’m a shattered mess, heartbreak it’s quite the show

Got me bound, got me gassed, I ain’t I ain’t breathin' yo

Someone help cause the weight is pressing on my chest

Think i’m gonna die alone man i’m such a mess

Can this kill me, lately i been thinkin yes

Staring off of the bridge, should I jump, my heart saying yes

I won’t kill myself but thought ablut it many times

It’s not cause a you it’s cause a me and all my crimes

I’m a piece a trash, throw me in the can again

Knowin' there’s nothing i could do to be your man again